Wading Through Grief
Two weeks ago today I got a phone call that changed my life completely. My dad had unexpectedly passed away. It’s been two weeks and my head is still spinning with thoughts, questions, grief, and anger. We had a complicated and strained relationship but, nevertheless, I loved him and prayed daily for healing in our relationship.
Through these weeks of grief, it’s been amazing to feel the love and grace of the Lord physically present in my life. I’ve felt the prayers of friends and loved ones and known without a doubt that God has been with me. I’ve been filled with words to share with my siblings that bring pieces of comfort. I’ve been filled with supernatural strength to sit with my mom at the funeral home, discuss the details of the memorial service with the church, and make a heart wrenching call to my brother and his wife on their vacation.
I feel over and over the Lord whispering in my ear that this will be used for His glory. Not that this is His plan but He will draw people to Himself through this trial. Time and again I’m drawn back to 2 Corinthians 1 “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. For just as we share abundantly in the sufferings of Christ, so also our comfort abounds through Christ.” Amen and amen.
This space might be a little disjointed in the coming weeks. There may be weeks I focus on my normal motherhood content but there may be weeks all I want to do is word vomit all over the computer screen (sorry for the visual). I hope you’ll choose to walk alongside me in this season of grief, lifting my family up in your prayers.
If nothing else, go find someone, give them a hug, and tell them you love them. Life is fleeting and we don’t know what tomorrow brings. I’m choosing to be more intentional with my guys, lavishing love on them, and more focused on the Lord, soaking up His mercy and grace. Those are the things that matter in life!