Caleb Turns One… Mama Cries
My dearest, darling Caleb! I don’t know where to begin with this letter. This year has been the most amazing, challenging, wonderful, fabulous year of my life. I can’t imagine my life without you and I’m so incredibly thankfully that God gave me the opportunity to be your mom. If we’re being honest, you haven’t been the easiest kid. From the first kick I felt at 14 weeks pregnant I knew you were a mover and a shaker. I told Peggy (the midwife who took care of me during the pregnancy and then delivered you) that I was confident that you were going to be a little opinionated stinker and she just laughed. Sure enough, though, you totally are. You know what you want and you are not hesitant to let us know! Your daddy and I pray that God will use your stubborn persistence in amazing ways! That is a trait that can be wonderful for the Kingdom of God once you figure out how to reign it in a little. Daddy and I also look back with (not so) fond thoughts when we think of all the troubles we experienced getting you to sleep. We remember the first four-ish months when you would absolutely scream for hours every evening. We remember how you couldn’t fall asleep on your own and screamed to let us know it! Hours were spent vigorously bouncing on my yoga ball in order to comfort you and put you to sleep. It’s amazing how far you’ve come and that, for the past four months you’ve been putting yourself to sleep and the past two months you’ve been sleeping through the night! You still get crazy when you’re tired but you’ve come such a long way! With all the frustrations and struggles we’ve had with you we’ve had 100 times more wonderful times! We get so much joy from you and love how precious of a heart you’ve already displayed. When we’re out and about people always tell me that you’re so somber and thoughtful – which it totally true. You’re always taking things in and always want to know what’s going on and you do it with such a serious thinker face on. You’re quiet, don’t smile too much, and want to be with the people you know. Daddy and I love that we know you deeper than that, though. We love that we get to see your silly side. We get to experience how hilarious you are, how much you love to chatter, and how much you love us! We are amazed by how sweet of a spirit we see in you! You are already showing so much empathy and care for other little kids. You can be so obedient and are pretty good at listening to us when we gently correct your behavior. We know that will only continue as the years go on. My dear Caleb, our relationship is the most special relationship I’ve ever experienced. It’s hard to describe the connection and love I have for you. Sharing my days with you is absolutely the best thing in the entire world and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. It’s amazing how much trust you put in me and I strive to live up to what you see in me. Your relationship with your daddy is the most precious thing to see. You adore him and he feels the same way about you. I love how much of a guy’s guy you are and how you want to spend all the time possible with your dad. I can just envision the future with you two teaming up against me. Most of all, I want you to know that I pray for you constantly! I know that the Lord has amazing plans for your life! I can’t wait to see how He’s going to work in your life and what He has in store for you! I love you so much!
Mama PS. Yes, I totally cried writing this. Your Turn:
Did your kids get a smash cake?
How stinking adorable is Caleb? 😉